I don’t know how to say this without sounding cheesy or without offending someone so I am just going to spit it out..
I did not choose God. God chose me. God must have been beside me all the time but I had never looked for him, thought about him or invited him in. This is what is called grace some might say.
I have pondered over this many many times during my sobriety..why me? how did this happen? how have I, out of all these people managed to get so lucky as to have a relationship with God? I did not set out to get this, I did not sign up for this, I did not get brainwashed nor join a cult, I did not make it my mission in life, I did not get introduced to a church nor go looking for one. If anything, I shielded myself from religion. I did not want to go to AA partly because of religion.
But here I am. 2 plus years sober. I pray almost without ceasing sometimes, I love having a relationship with God. I experience the miracles of having faith on a near daily basis. My faith grows by the day. I feel the effect of God in every aspect of my life.
I think I must have had some good people around me saying prayers for me when I wasn’t paying attention. I think that I got lucky. I don’t know how it happened but it did happen. It is hard to explain, people laugh, some scoff, some are jealous, some just don’t get it. But I have something so valuable in my life now that I know I have changed forever for the better. I can not comprehend how I lived any other way.
I guess I just wanted to talk about this huge part of my life. If you are not religious then you may quickly click away after reading part of this post, if you do that is fine. That is exactly what I would have done back in the days of my drinking and of my early sobriety. It really makes no odds.
Strange but true. Faith is Amazing.