Quiet Times

September 5, 2010
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You may have noticed that I have gone a little quiet. I do that sometimes. I notice that when I don’t feel so great I write less in Recovery Princess and loads in my journal. That is so typical of how we are as people, when times get tough we tend to retreat and stay out of contact for a little while until we feel ready to face the world again, or at least I do. I suppose we always want everyone to see that we have things together, that we are handling life well, that we are more that coping, we are excelling. We want to share how we feel and what we are going through yet we fear what someone may think about us if they really knew what was going on in our heads. We would feel vulnerable and incompetent in some way. So instead, we withdraw until we feel better again. Maybe you don’t do this but I do.

I feel like I have been taken down a peg or two over the last few weeks. I went from feeling pretty much on top of the world with very minimal inner turmoil to feeling steamrolled. Now I am left questioning where I am headed, how to get over past regrets, how to move forward, who to become, how to do it, how to live, the list goes on and on. I went from being sure about everything to being really confused again.

Somewhere in the Bible it says something along the lines that when you go through dark times, God is nearer to you, that he is working through you, that in your weakness God’s glory can shine through you, that there is a lesson to learn in the pain that you are feeling. I take these ideas as truth and use it for pushing forward and learning more about myself and finding out how to overcome feelings from the past and being more prepared for the future.

It is not easy when you feel depressed or frustrated but it does remind you that you are human and are only really able to do so much on your own before you need to lean on someone else for real power and strength.

Well that is where I am right now. Going through a learning phase, a pretty long one! I will be back though!! I haven’t come this far to quit now and at least I am not doing this on my own anymore so I have lots of hope!

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6 Responses to Quiet Times

  1. Patrick on September 6, 2010 at 6:04 am

    What an awesome and honest post…really refreshing to read!

    The amazing thing is that you have such confidence that “this too shall pass.”

    You should not feel bad about your own progress….nobody has a flawless, perfect life situation. Everyone has some struggle, some battle they are fighting. We all have trials. They come and go….that’s life!

    Thank you for putting this out there, Madison….

  2. nancy on September 7, 2010 at 12:37 am

    Hi Madison. Thank you for your sharing your thoughts, I feel less alone because I can relate to everything you are saying. I will sleep better just knowing you are out there. You have lent me some power and strength thank you.

  3. Madison on September 7, 2010 at 9:34 pm

    Thanks for the support Patrick.
    I often wrestle with how much of myself to give away, my first instinct is not to tell all but I quickly get superceded by the idea of knowing that I need to share my journey in order to help others. So it is reassuring when I get comments like I have today.
    Thank you!

  4. Madison on September 7, 2010 at 9:36 pm

    Thank you Nancy.
    I am so glad that I can be of help. You most certainly are not alone.
    I am glad you can relate to my writing.
    Madison

  5. Kathy on October 25, 2010 at 12:52 pm

    Hello,
    I found your blog about 2 months ago and I find so much strength in your posts. Your blog has helped me to take some control over my “demons” and sometimes fail but I know that these things take time.
    I hope that you are well and thank you for this blog.

  6. Madison on October 30, 2010 at 7:19 pm

    Hi Kathy,
    I am really pleased to hear that you find strength in these posts.
    I have been going through some difficult times myself, but I know that sobriety and faith are the only way forward. I also know that the difficult times end and slowly but surely life does get better. Sobriety takes you toward the path that you are supposed to be on even though it is painful at times.
    Keep coming back.
    Thanks for your message. You have inspired me to write more. It helps to know that I can help someone. Stay strong!

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