What Do You Want To Know?

3 Responses to What Do You Want To Know?

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   Joni on November 9, 2010 at 6:41 am

   Hi. I am a 47 yr old middle class stay at home mom from the suburbs of Long Island. I have one child(now 13,a son) . I am not a party animal,bar fly,drug user,toughie etc. I have never been a good drinker ie:crying,saying things I regretted,having too many…..the usual stuff from one who has a fer too many. For the past couple of years alcohol has been my best friend( so I thought). Drinking wine alone,at home,at night usually while cleaning out my closets or watching a tv show. For the past two years It has gotten ugly…..and so have I. I have earned a reputation amoung social circles (neighborhood gatherings,Family parties,drunk dialing friends etc. For the past two months I drink earlier in the day (even a beer to stop the anxious hangover) I sneak wine in a coffee cup while going pumpkin picking with my son and husband. I have now graduated to the 1.5 liter of white zinfindel which I can sometimes almost polish off except for an inch at the bottom. I used to be attractive and well groomed….dressed hip,had my hair and nails done regularly. Now I am isolated from those arouund me…..I am so ashamed of myself. The last straw was two days ago…….A beautiful fall afternoon. My 13 yr old boy and husband were watching the Football game together with a lovely fire going. I felt left out so I made believe I was working in the bckyard while drinking wine in a coffee cup. Then I went for a walk with my neighbor…..went back to her house…..asked her for a glass of wine……I got plastered….stumbled in and told my husband we should get a divorce because he doesnt need me…..served cold chichen nuggets to my son….stumbled crying…….Upset my son SO much. Next day I apologized. I feel like the biggest loser. Tried AA…..hate all the dark basements,smokers junk food and tales of people I cannot relate to. I need to speak to someone like me…..who lived through this shame and humiliation of being a mother /wife whos life was totally falling apart.(i do NoT think i am better than anyone…..just prefer to deal with similar circumstances} PLEASE…..can you email me back…..maybe share your story with me? I contacted women for sobriety….they only meet wed. nites I will be attending my first meeting but on the meantime…..something about your website and writting style appealed to me. Thank you for listening…Joni PS….This is my 2nd day Sober(I had 10 days 2 months ago and felt so proud. What a jerk! Joni
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   Kelly on February 28, 2011 at 8:04 am

   Madison, Thank you so much for all of your posts. I relate so much of what you have, and are going through. I recently realized that I am an alcoholic that suffers from depression. And have been one for almost 20 years. I checked myself into rehab for 2 weeks, and it was the BEST gift I could have ever given to myself. I am now a little over 6 months sober, and life is fantastic! Thanks again…Kelly
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   Madison on February 28, 2011 at 12:30 pm

   Congratulations Kelly. Good for you. It takes courage to do what you have done. Now you can really start living!