Sobriety Ups and Downs

The other thing about sobriety that is hard to handle; is the ups and down in your confidence. There is this pressure about living right that overtakes you at times. You are used to screwing things up with alcohol for so long that when you stop drinking you become borderline perfectionist trying to overcompensate.

Should I act this way? Or should I act that way? Alcoholics have an alter ego and that ego becomes a part of who you are but now that is not you anymore and it leaves you feeling confused about who the hell you are now. I guess that is another part of early sobriety that is really tough.

As you get more and more sobriety time under your belt you begin to feel more sure of who you are and who you are becoming but lets face it, when you were drinking, you were a different person. So it takes time.

No wonder so many people just can’t handle sobriety and relapse frequently. It is so damn difficult.

I don’t want you to feel that it is not worth the ride because it is. It is just bittersweet. Once you taste true sobriety you won’t want to loose that feeling, you want to keep going to get more of it. Unlike alcohol it leaves you feeling refreshed and renewed. Not hungover.

I think I am finally coming out of the people pleasing stage of my sobriety. I don’t know if anyone else has gone through this? Please share if you have. I am just glad I am finding myself again and getting my attitude back. (in a good way!)

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