My Sobriety Update

I haven’t wrote much lately so I thought I would do a little update. I have just got through a really really horrible week. In some ways, it felt as bad as it used to be when I was drinking. In fact, I felt a lot like the person I used to be when I was drinking. I had too much going on and I guess that I just could not cope. Everything erupted like a volcano. I was angry, confused, upset, un-trusting, hopeless and pretty miserable for a 5 continuous days. I thought about drinking and having a cigarette but really what a total waste of time it would be. Being sober for nearly a year now means I can no longer kid myself and think that maybe I could handle one or two drinks. It just would never work. I reminded myself often of just how crap I felt towards the end of the drinking. Alcohol stopped working for me, it did not do the job it once did and if I were to drink again now it would be the same thing.

Anyway, some good came out of my awful week. I faced a bunch of issues that I have been denying that I have a problem with,  I discussed them with my therapist and I am feeling ready to move forward and overcome them. This is huge for me because I have been carrying around old baggage for way too long. I now feel like I have a fresh start and I have optimism again. Last week is history and tomorrow is a new day. Life is good again.

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Tags: alcohol stopped working for me, carrying around old baggage, maybe I could handle one or two drinks, sober for nearly a year